If I’m looking back on what led me to 29029, the truth is, I’ve been climbing mountains my whole life.
When I was eight years old, I was kidnapped while picking flowers for my mom just out of her view beyond a playground fence.
I was grabbed, thrown into a man's car, driven to a remote field, and forced to get out.
What followed was a nightmare. I was terrified, but at one point, I prayed for strength and guidance.
Every part of me heard the word "move," and it was as if guardian angels got my little legs to escape to safety when I had the chance.
This was before Amber Alerts and 24-hour news, so when I was rescued, I tried to go back to life as it was before.
I shoved down all the emotions and acted strong.
But the shame and guilt started brewing, and I carried that weight with me for decades.
Why did I leave the playground area? Why did I cause my family such pain?
It took decades to start letting go of that, but releasing that blame and finding compassion for my younger self has been a focus for me the past few years.
In 2022, I was struggling with grief after losing my dad, mom, and a dear friend of mine. I knew I needed to dig deeper and work on myself.
Part of what helped me work through that was something called a misogi: choosing to take on a challenge that is such a stretch, there is a serious risk you won’t be successful.
Misogi is what led me to 29029.