The gondola was shut down for hours while thunder and rain battered the mountain.
I found myself caught out on the mountain, mid-ascent, freezing cold, soaked, and with a headlamp that ran out of batteries.
When I finally made it to the summit, I took refuge inside with dozens of other participants as we waited for the gondola to restart. Every warm spot near the fire was taken, so I sat in the corner, teeth chattering.
Miserable.
When the gondola finally restarted, I decided I was done.
I’m quitting.
I waited until the line of people getting on the gondola was nearly empty, then headed over.
Somebody from the gondola car ahead of me poked their head out and said, “come ride with us.”
I didn’t want to.
I wanted to sit alone and be grumpy about the conditions. But I also didn’t want to be rude.
The gondola car I begrudgingly stepped into was filled with mostly spectators, who were supporting the young participant sitting in the middle of the seat. It was Eddie Perez, the 18-year old who had fundraised his way to the mountain.
His mother eyed my Black Bib, and asked the inevitable question:
“You’ve done a lot of these. How does this one compare?”
I wanted to say it was the worst one ever, that it sucked, and that I was going to quit.
But I didn’t want to poison Eddie’s experience, so I gave a generic answer.
Then she asked another question.
“Why do you keep doing these?”
I started repeating the usual lines. Exercise, fitness, health, community, challenge… and as that word left my mouth, it hit me.
Challenge.
I felt like such a fraud.
Here I was saying I keep coming back because of the challenge, yet I was about to quit because of that very challenge.
That realization on the gondola kept me from quitting.
I went back out.
I hiked all night.
And the next day, I pulled a Red Hat on at the summit.